Find Me feat. Kat Padlan(faindomificharingukattopadoran) Kubota

Ive been trying tell myself
That I belong here
That Im worth loving ,
Something I dont hear much
Or maybe Ive ignored it
Placing more importance on my negative thoughts
Therapies a choice but I cant really afford it
Operating still but thinking I should force quit no
Carrying all my baggage under covers
No one really asks so I dont really bother
But yo , it aint their fault
Its my own product
My own fault they dont know because I dont open up
But even then ,
Its been easier to let it be
Im not good at speaking up
Ill keep pretending
No need to ask about my thoughts
cause all my words get stuck but
I can take these mental blocks ,
And build them into a song
This one , the one before and after
Tweak it up a bit
Ownership with my mix and masters
Dont have to cast a lie to yall
This my honest voice I offer you
Dont want to alter the truth
Ill speak subjects I know
And thats myself
Took a minute though
trying to figure me out but time will tell
Ill keep it simple , no need for minor info
Ill leave the major ones in though like these chords
and these notes but
Times moves so fast and I feel defeated
At the very least , should be grateful that Im still breathing
Even though Im Slow rolling
In normal motion
Times scrolling
Fast with these apps in my phone and
The fact is my will and devotions got a mirror held up to it
when seconds go pointless
And I know that the old clock stays ticking
Pointing in every direction
Yet Im feeling aimless

I dont know where Ill be
Living life but cant breathe
In the moment always counting dollars but Im
Forgetting what really matters
Live more than just dreams cause
I dont know where Ill be
Believe I could be free
Hoping I could find me
Im hoping I could find peace
Im hoping i could find me
Cause I dont know where Ill be
But Im hoping I could find

Im just a simple man
Just as simple as whats good vs bad
Whats makes me happy or sad
And damn
I hate that simple rhyme
But theyre the factors in a question thats more complex
than my simple mind because
My obsession to reach a point of happiness
Might be the exact reason why I wont achieve it
Let its presence seep in ,
I try to conceive it
Let me simmer in my joy without predicting my week
But then another year
Passed faster than I hoped for
Wishing bone snapped in hopes the hourglass wont move forward
But alas it remained in the same motion
Realizations came with the facts I cant do much to control it
Snapped me back to reality bout my own motives
What exactly am I doing
is it worth it ?
I came into the new year as a new man again
But I dont know , I feel like Ive been moving against the sand

I dont know where Ill be
Living life but cant breathe
In the moment always counting dollars but Im
Forgetting what really matters
Live more than just dreams cause
I dont know where Ill be
Believe I could be free
Hoping I could find me
Im hoping I could find peace
Im hoping i could find me
Cause I dont know where Ill be
But Im hoping I could find me
Im hoping I could find peace
Im hoping i could find me
Cause I dont know where Ill be
But Im hoping I could find

I've been trying tell myself
That I belong here
That I'm worth loving,
Something I don't hear much
Or maybe I've ignored it
Placing more importance on my negative thoughts
Therapies a choice but I can't really afford it
Operating still but thinking I should force quit (no)
Carrying all my baggage under covers
No one really asks so I don't really bother
But yo, it ain't their fault
It's my own product
My own fault they don't know because I don't open up
But even then,
It's been easier to let it be
I'm not good at speaking up
I'll keep pretending
No need to ask about my thoughts
'cause all my words get stuck but
I can take these mental blocks,
And build them into a song
This one, the one before and after
Tweak it up a bit
Ownership with my mix and masters
Don't have to cast a lie to ya'll
This my honest voice I offer you
Don't want to alter the truth
I'll speak subjects I know
And that's myself
Took a minute though
trying to figure me out but time will tell
I'll keep it simple, no need for minor info
I'll leave the major ones in though like these chords
and these notes but
Times moves so fast and I feel defeated
At the very least, should be grateful that I'm still breathing
Even though I'm Slow rolling
In normal motion
Times scrolling
Fast with these apps in my phone and
The fact is my will and devotions got a mirror held up to it
when seconds go pointless
And I know that the old clock stays ticking
Pointing in every direction
Yet I'm feeling aimless

I don't know where I'll be
Living life but can't breathe
In the moment always counting dollars but I'm
Forgetting what really matters
Live more than just dreams 'cause
I don't know where I'll be
Believe I could be free
Hoping I could find me
I'm hoping I could find peace
I'm hoping i could find me
'Cause I don't know where I'll be
But I'm hoping I could find…

I'm just a simple man
Just as simple as what's good vs bad
Whats makes me happy or sad
And damn
I hate that simple rhyme
But they're the factors in a question that's more complex
than my simple mind because
My obsession to reach a point of happiness
Might be the exact reason why I won't achieve it
Let it's presence seep in,
I try to conceive it
Let me simmer in my joy without predicting my week
But then another year
Passed faster than I hoped for
Wishing bone snapped in hopes the hourglass won't move forward
But alas it remained in the same motion
Realizations came with the facts I can't do much to control it
Snapped me back to reality bout my own motives
What exactly am I doing
is it worth it？
I came into the new year as a new man again
But I don't know, I feel like I've been moving against the sand

I don't know where I'll be
Living life but can't breathe
In the moment always counting dollars but I'm
Forgetting what really matters
Live more than just dreams 'cause
I don't know where I'll be
Believe I could be free
Hoping I could find me
I'm hoping I could find peace
I'm hoping i could find me
'Cause I don't know where I'll be
But I'm hoping I could find me
I'm hoping I could find peace
I'm hoping i could find me
'Cause I don't know where I'll be
But I'm hoping I could find…