wish i could hate you(uisshuaikuddoheitoyu) Alisa

Its not fair
You shouldve given me a reason to hate you
Now I gotta try find one for myself
Gotta go through the stages of hell

So Im searching through my memories
All the times you were next to me
Honestly Im struggling
To think of you negatively
You got along with my mum
Even she thought you were the one
I remember us crying , tears from laughing
Writhing , rolling on the floor
So stupid , had me dying
Couldnt you have done something wrong ?
Still smile when I hear our song

I wish I could say
You were the worst
Scum of the earth
I wish I could say
You made my life a living hell
I wish I could say
You hurt me first
You dont deserve me
Wish I could hate you
I never will

Was I blinded ?
Am I suffering memory loss ?
Theres gotta be some anger I can summon
So I can leave you in the dust
Am I denying
Any moments of distrust ?
Feel like Ill always be comparing
What we had with future love

Im searching through my memories
All the times that you were next to me
Honestly Im struggling
To think of you negatively
You got along with my mum
Even she thought you were the one
I remember us crying , tears from laughing
Writhing , rolling on the floor
So stupid , had me dying
Couldnt you have done something wrong ?
I still smile when I hear our song

I wish I could say
You were the worst
Scum of the earth
I wish I could say
You made my life a living hell
I wish I could say
You hurt me first
You dont deserve me
Wish I could hate you
But you know I never will

It's not fair
You should've given me a reason to hate you
Now I gotta try find one for myself
Gotta go through the stages of hell

So I'm searching through my memories
All the times you were next to me
Honestly I'm struggling
To think of you negatively
You got along with my mum
Even she thought you were the one
I remember us crying, tears from laughing
Writhing, rolling on the floor
So stupid, had me dying
Couldn't you have done something wrong？
Still smile when I hear our song

I wish I could say
You were the worst
Scum of the earth
I wish I could say
You made my life a living hell
I wish I could say
You hurt me first
You don't deserve me
Wish I could hate you
I never will

Was I blinded？
Am I suffering memory loss？
There's gotta be some anger I can summon
So I can leave you in the dust
Am I denying
Any moments of distrust？
Feel like I'll always be comparing
What we had with future love

I'm searching through my memories
All the times that you were next to me
Honestly I'm struggling
To think of you negatively
You got along with my mum
Even she thought you were the one
I remember us crying, tears from laughing
Writhing, rolling on the floor
So stupid, had me dying
Couldn't you have done something wrong？
I still smile when I hear our song

I wish I could say
You were the worst
Scum of the earth
I wish I could say
You made my life a living hell
I wish I could say
You hurt me first
You don't deserve me
Wish I could hate you
But you know I never will